Sunday, April 7, 2013

heartache, heartbreak.


ok.

i think it's time to talk about it.

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a few weeks ago,
my partner of over 5 years
broke up with me.

it's been messy,
emotional and heartbreaking and confusing and awful.

i feel like i no longer know myself,
and i no longer know
where i belong.

currently i'm in ottawa,
trying to pick up the pieces
of my muddled heart,
and put together
some sort of future
for myself.

but it is really,
really
hard.

i keep seeing wedding photos,
couples on the street,
magazine articles
on how to "keep your man happy,"
car commercials!
and they all make me want
to do nothing but cry.

the upheaval that's come of this breakup
is so much crazier than i'd anticipated,
and i no longer have
someone to help me get through it,
someone to tell me it'll be alright,
someone to love me unconditionally,
like i did for half a decade.

so, like i said: rough.

anyway,
i just needed to get that out -
not for pity,
but for awareness.

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i'm still working on a proper launch
and the new site
(and logo!)
will be along shortly.

i'm so excited for the revamp,
i can't even say...
making beautiful things
for beautiful people to wear
is the ray of sunshine
in my life right now,
and keeping myself busy
is what's keeping me sane.

6 comments:

  1. I don't comment very much, but I do read every post you make and I think of you often. You can send me an email some time and we can catch up, if you like.

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    1. thanks jeremy...i would love to catch up with you soon. :)

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  2. Aww :(

    I thought I saw you on the 87 bus today (April 10).

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    1. nope...just a lookalike, i guess! haha.

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  3. Sending you good thoughts during this time.

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